My hospital called to inform me that my genetic results are in! Originally, I was supposed to wait another 3 weeks. Now that they are available for me, I decided to move my appointment to this coming Tuesday instead of the end of March – why delay it any longer? I would rather get it over with now.

This is a big deal for me, guys. If you recall from my previous post, I feel I need more reasons to make drastic decisions about my life, specifically about family planning. I also want to learn more about my genetic composition due to my strong family history of cancer (no one has tested positive for the BRCA gene). I want to help my family find some answers, too.

I opted to learn about all genes that are linked to all types of cancers. Of course, I am hoping to get “the clear” on these 25 genes they tested me for.

Am I scared?

Strangely enough I don’t feel scared. I am aware there are things I have no control over, including my breast cancer. But to me knowledge is power. I would rather know the facts before committing to something serious in my life such as having a child.

There is one concern floating in my mind though. I am worried how these results would affect my relationships with my family. Cancer has opened up my eyes in so many ways but not everyone wants to experience that form of awakening. Many people feel just fine living their lives in denial – after all, denial is a form of coping with life in general. Not everyone in my family wants to know or hear the answers.

But I can only deal with one thing at a time so today my focus is on learning about these genetic results, process the news and continue to the next chapter of my life. Whatever that chapter may be, I am ready. Bring it on!