You would think that after cancer, not much would scare me anymore, right? Nah! I still have my fear of needles, strangely enough. And, my fear of heights remained the same after cancer too.

And yet — I am contemplating the idea of going skydiving. I’ve been thinking about it for a while actually but haven’t convinced myself that I can do it yet.

I really want to do something wild, even if the thought of losing control again – the way cancer made me feel – scares me. I mean, once I jump off that plane, there’s no turning back. I’ll be…falling down!

But skydiving sounds so exciting, doesn’t it? And challenging in a good way. The idea of allowing myself to let go and simply let things be, turn me on.

First I need to check with my Cardiologist to make sure my heart murmur will not be an issue.

I have two volunteers that are willing to jump with me. We won’t be jumping off the plane attached to each other since we are all beginners but they will go…after I jump. How sneaky!

I did some research and it looks like I have some options nearby. Locally, there is a place called Skydive the Ranch with great reviews. I can also drive to New Jersey or Pennsylvania to do this. Another option would be to skydive in California (CA) when I go in May. I want to stay conservative though since I am new to this. I want to stay attached to the experienced jumper and not try something out of the ordinary. (As if skydiving wasn’t out of the ordinary enough?)

I need to make this happen for me soon, guys. I want to fly!