Author Archives: thesmallc

About thesmallc

I'm Rebeca. I was diagnosed with breast cancer at the age of 32. But there's more to my story: I am an animal lover. I love to cook. I have a wonderful fiancé who doesn't mind walking my rocky path with me. We currently live in New York. ---------------------------------------- “Those who have a 'why' to live, can bear with almost any 'how'.” ― Viktor E. Frankl

They said it would be the easiest part

At first, the most annoying thing about radiation was having to be at my hospital everyday for 21 consecutive days. The burns caused by the radiation were not pleasant, but skin heals. I have to say though that, emotionally, radiation … Continue reading

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Tamoxifen Detective: How I got my Teva back

Last year, I shared the story of how I was given a different brand of my Tamoxifen at the pharmacy. It was made by Mylan instead of Teva, the brand that I’ve been in a long relationship with (click here … Continue reading

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My Babadook

(This post contains spoilers about a recent movie.) I took some extra time off from work during the holidays to recharge. 2016 was a very tough year all around. I was looking forward to doing fun things to distract myself … Continue reading

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Too formal

I find that the culture at my cancer hospital is too formal. And sometimes I need a hug or two. Maybe I am asking for too much. I recall my first visit. I first met with my surgeon, who was … Continue reading

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Wish list

There is this writing program sponsored by my cancer hospital that allows patients to express themselves and get an opportunity to publish their work. Each year, I try to write a piece and submit it for publication. For this year, … Continue reading

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My Caregiver

I feel like I’ve taken my caregiver for granted. I know he is always there, waiting to please me. Always aware of my struggles and trying to comfort me in every way he can, even when he himself doesn’t have … Continue reading

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“Kiddo”

Here’s something about me: I love interacting with old people. If I get invited to a gathering, you’ll always see me talking to the older crowd. Being someone who was raised by her grandparents, I always had an appreciation for … Continue reading

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When I get too close

When I meet another BC patient, whether it’s online or in person, it becomes personal right away. There’s a risk I take every time I get too close. This is probably not the perfect analogy, but I remember the first … Continue reading

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