Picture from Lisa’s Blog (one of the many things I will miss from Lisa)

I have been finding it difficult to write about Lisa. I still have her link on my page as you can see — not planning to delete it as it was, and still is, a great source of information and inspiration. I cannot seem to find a way to write the words “RIP” next to it though.

Each time I learn about someone’s death due to bc, someone I knew of, it affects me. You would think I should be “prepared” for the news, right? Not me. It hits me hard every time, even when expected. I guess in a way I always carry a piece of hope for those cancer patients who struggle. I had hope for Lisa.

I had another connection to Lisa other than breast cancer. We both shared the same Oncologist, Dr. Chau Dang, at Memorial Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center. I feel for Dr. Dang as well. She must be heartbroken. Dr. Dang tries so hard to keep us strong. All of our doctors do. Although they lose patients all the time, I am sure that, like me, they carry hope as well. Otherwise, why try?

I feel sad for Lisa’s family. Please know you are all in my prayers for inner peace and to find the strength to carry on.

I will miss so much about Lisa: her writing, her poems, her honesty, her willingness to share reality with all of us, her courage, her love for life, the little pictures she always included with her posts.

This is the part I find so difficult to cope with when losing someone to breast cancer, because I feel sad and guilty at the same time. Two very strong emotions I can’t control.

Lisa: I know you were not into the “angel watching” talk. You can call me stubborn, which I admit I can be. If you are watching now, please know you were loved and admired by so many, including me. You probably know by now.

You are already missed.

RIP sweet Lisa.
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“Find a bit of beauty in the world today. Share it. If you can’t find it, create it. Some days this may be hard to do. Persevere.” – Lisa Bonchek Adams