Category Archives: Reflections
Walking away from ‘emotional cancers’
It’s not really possible to simply walk away from cancer. At least, I don’t find it possible. But I’m wondering — is it possible to just walk away from other toxic parts of life? I’ve realized that I need to … Continue reading
A lesson from an elevator
Lately I’ve been anxious about aches and pains. Always worried about a reoccurrence, even after the tests and MRIs come back looking fine. Although I know we are all going to go one way or another, I am not one … Continue reading
I let her decide
I’ve been seeing a survivorship therapist at MSKCC for the last couple of months. We mostly talk about my challenges with survivorship — how I’ve been dealing with my caught-between-two-worlds identity crisis, about feeling unsafe, and about grief. But we … Continue reading
Somebody stop me before I tell the truth
A late side effect of my cancer diagnosis is that I seem to have lost my filter for my words and actions. It has gotten worse recently. It doesn’t matter where I am or who I am speaking with. Where … Continue reading
New Year’s lessons from a butterfly (no resolutions for me)
It is almost 2016. Each year almost comes as a surprise to us, doesn’t it? Especially as we get older. My reaction is the same every December 31: “I can’t believe it is <insert year> already!” I don’t remember saying … Continue reading
A place you can call your home
Holidays are generally hard for me. I know they must be for some of you as well. I miss my home with my grandparents. How we would gather around the table with all kinds of different foods; some were only … Continue reading
A dialogue with a nurse
While the nurse was preparing my IV to get me ready for my breast MRI, she also asked questions about my well being – a great way to distract me. She already knew my dislike for needles. “So how are … Continue reading
The small c 