Author Archives: thesmallc
They said I was ‘normal’
Sometimes I find it difficult to believe it when my doctors call me ‘normal’. They aren’t just referring to my survivorship challenges but also to my current physical health. Why can’t I just hold on to the good news and … Continue reading
Somebody stop me before I tell the truth
A late side effect of my cancer diagnosis is that I seem to have lost my filter for my words and actions. It has gotten worse recently. It doesn’t matter where I am or who I am speaking with. Where … Continue reading
New Year’s lessons from a butterfly (no resolutions for me)
It is almost 2016. Each year almost comes as a surprise to us, doesn’t it? Especially as we get older. My reaction is the same every December 31: “I can’t believe it is <insert year> already!” I don’t remember saying … Continue reading
These days
My mind is all over the place. Sometimes I feel I can’t focus. There are just too many emotions flowing through me during these holidays. So many memories of people who are no longer here. There is also sad, bad … Continue reading
Another moment of forced exploration
As I was getting ready to fall asleep, a thought entered my mind. I turned to my guy and asked, “what if I decide to stop Tamoxifen? Leave everything aside and just live my life?” His response? A very long … Continue reading
Unlearned lessons
I am chatting with a friend, and she notices I am still stressing the ‘small stuff’ and being disappointed about some people in my life. “You’re still angry at those situations, huh,” she says, surprised to hear me complain. She … Continue reading
A place you can call your home
Holidays are generally hard for me. I know they must be for some of you as well. I miss my home with my grandparents. How we would gather around the table with all kinds of different foods; some were only … Continue reading
The small c 