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About thesmallc

I'm Rebeca. I was diagnosed with breast cancer at the age of 32. But there's more to my story: I am an animal lover. I love to cook. I have a wonderful fiancé who doesn't mind walking my rocky path with me. We currently live in New York. ---------------------------------------- “Those who have a 'why' to live, can bear with almost any 'how'.” ― Viktor E. Frankl

Today I honor them

Posted on March 30, 2015 by thesmallc

Many years ago, when I was about eight years old, other kids my age would ask among themselves, “what would you do if you were told you only had a few days to live?” You must wonder why kids would … Continue reading →

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What ever happened to that girl?

Posted on March 25, 2015 by thesmallc

My honey always tells me, “be careful posting about your dreams. Not everyone believes that they actually mean anything.” But what does he know? As a matter of fact, I am picturing him right now shaking his head because of … Continue reading →

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Conflicts of guilt

Posted on March 14, 2015 by thesmallc

I have been crying lately. In addition to all the sad news I’ve been getting, I am also dealing with survivorship guilt. Yesterday, I learned yet another family member has been diagnosed with breast cancer, and that the cancer might … Continue reading →

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News I hold on to

Posted on March 11, 2015 by thesmallc

I got the clear on all 25 genes, guys! I couldn’t wait to share the good news with all of you. I felt so relieved. As of now I only have one mutated gene, ATM, which might or might not … Continue reading →

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Thinking of Lisa Bonchek Adams, her family and Dr. Chau Dang

Posted on March 9, 2015 by thesmallc

I have been finding it difficult to write about Lisa. I still have her link on my page as you can see — not planning to delete it as it was, and still is, a great source of information and … Continue reading →

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Genetic results are in!

Posted on March 7, 2015 by thesmallc

My hospital called to inform me that my genetic results are in! Originally, I was supposed to wait another 3 weeks. Now that they are available for me, I decided to move my appointment to this coming Tuesday instead of … Continue reading →

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Skydiving

Posted on March 1, 2015 by thesmallc

You would think that after cancer, not much would scare me anymore, right? Nah! I still have my fear of needles, strangely enough. And, my fear of heights remained the same after cancer too. And yet — I am contemplating … Continue reading →

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Reasons I kept my cancer diagnosis semi-private

Posted on February 23, 2015 by thesmallc

I chose to keep my cancer diagnosis semi-private at the beginning because, otherwise, it would have been too much drama for me to handle all at once. I didn’t want to dramatize my cancer. This was not easy, but to the … Continue reading →

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