Author Archives: thesmallc

About thesmallc

I'm Rebeca. I was diagnosed with breast cancer at the age of 32. But there's more to my story: I am an animal lover. I love to cook. I have a wonderful fiancé who doesn't mind walking my rocky path with me. We currently live in New York. ---------------------------------------- “Those who have a 'why' to live, can bear with almost any 'how'.” ― Viktor E. Frankl

Too formal

I find that the culture at my cancer hospital is too formal. And sometimes I need a hug or two. Maybe I am asking for too much. I recall my first visit. I first met with my surgeon, who was … Continue reading

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Wish list

There is this writing program sponsored by my cancer hospital that allows patients to express themselves and get an opportunity to publish their work. Each year, I try to write a piece and submit it for publication. For this year, … Continue reading

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My Caregiver

I feel like I’ve taken my caregiver for granted. I know he is always there, waiting to please me. Always aware of my struggles and trying to comfort me in every way he can, even when he himself doesn’t have … Continue reading

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“Kiddo”

Here’s something about me: I love interacting with old people. If I get invited to a gathering, you’ll always see me talking to the older crowd. Being someone who was raised by her grandparents, I always had an appreciation for … Continue reading

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When I get too close

When I meet another BC patient, whether it’s online or in person, it becomes personal right away. There’s a risk I take every time I get too close. This is probably not the perfect analogy, but I remember the first … Continue reading

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Pink-Washing

My intention was to try to avoid Pinktober this year, especially after losing my friend Cathy last month. I’ve avoided going shopping to avoid being aggravated by all the pink branding. But sometimes it’s just unavoidable. Suddenly you see a … Continue reading

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I’m in no mood — unless you keep it real

Pinktober is approaching. And I’m in NO mood to deal with it. I don’t know about you, but I am tired. What am I tired of you ask? Well, I am tired of… ✔ Money spent on breast cancer “awareness.” … Continue reading

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Cathy

My friend is gone. I’ve said this to myself repeatedly the past few days, and it doesn’t sink in. I met Cathy through Terri, a mutual friend, in January 2011. Terri had suggested I reach out to Cathy because Cathy … Continue reading

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